Suddenly I See

Friday, February 26, 2010


I have become obsessed with Sonic's Chocolate Malts. To die for!

I haven't been running at all. Combined together with the new Sonic's obsession means not so good news for my tummy area. I told Rodger "I am going running tomorrow rain or shine!" There is a 5k next month, the training must commence. I haven't ran since January and that was only once.

I am super excited that the new season of "Kitchen Nightmares" started last night. Got that on the DVR to watch tonight. Gordon Ramsey's cursing is so delectable simply because he has a British accent. No accent and it would be annoying.

I am not sure how I am feeling about Ellen on American Idol. I love her normally and think that she is funny but it is just strange to hear her tell someone they sound "pitchy". Verdict is still out on her. Randy is tolerable as usual. The only thing I really care for about Kara is hernrockin' hair. And, of course, my love affair with Simon continues. Maybe this is why I am not too sure about Ellen yet. I can tell Simon doesn't like her. Maybe when he is gone I will think Ellen fits better. But really what is A.I. without Simon? It's barely anything without Paula. Maybe Ellen should start hitting the prescription meds hard. I just miss Paula's hands not quite connecting when she clapped. We'll see. I don't have any contestant favorites yet. I liked the long blonde hair guy until Kara started making a fool of herself in front of him. Okay, did I really just write a whole paragraph about American Idol? Enough.

I had a great 28th birthday. Feels pretty much like 27 so far. I have decided that this year will be the year that I will conquer my OCD. I am going to do it. It will happen. I have made a strong honest effort for a little over a week and there has been so much improvement already. I feel really good about it. Is it okay if I say that I am proud of myself? OCD can be really debilitating and I will be so glad to be done with it. So so glad. I will keep you updated on my progress.

On a lighter birthday note I love the digital frame that the Rodge got me and I am loving the yellow cardigan, cat earrings, and tankini that my parents got me. I am already envisioning myself wearing it in Hawaii. I probably won't have a fro when I wear it though just a lot of sand in my hair.

Have I mentioned that we are going back to Hawaii in September? Excited doesn't even begin to describe how I am feeling. I was telling my mom and Rodger that I think about Maui everyday. It was such a great vacation and I can't wait to go back.

I am loving this song. I hum it to myself a lot. It is just so pretty and has such a calming effect.

"I’m a lucky man to count on both hands the ones I love."

"Under everything, just another human being."

I have thought a lot about the post I made "Side Notes". I have been really good lately about keeping my mouth shut. I have accomplished a lot towards my goal of letting others know their truth. Around the beginning of the new year I decided that I shouldn't get to melancholy that time goes by so fast. I need to not measure my life in days, months, and years. Rather I need to look at my life as a journey that is not on a calendar. And I put these two ideas together. Others have their journey and I have mine and that is truly a beautiful thing.

Aw huh.


Pam said...

Great post. I know you can conquer the OCD. It has been a part of your life for too long. Time to say goodbye to it for good!

Eliza said...

I'm with Pam--you can conquer it! Go Katie!

Peggy said...

In the words of Ross Geller: "Just the one divorce in '99!...No more OCD in 2010!" The year of Katie!!! Love you too much!